Excerpts from the diaries
"...I drank some lighter fuel - got frantic & burst into tears - walk in the park & bed at 5AM..." 26 January 1974
“David asked B. for his rent today and mine too - je n'ai rien - hardly enough for a pint - if I had the bread I'd be drinking the finest wines oh Lord! Work! Work! Bed at 12:45 with the grisly thought of another day like today tomorrow.” 27 February 1974
"O Lord the march of time in its inexorable grey cloak – we’re into May now! No job, no chick and no bread – still nil Carborundum. And what is worse – as I peered into the dusty intestinal hall no Bunce [unemployment benefit] I had a fag and coffee and hastened out to a blustery but hazily sunny day…” 2 May 1975
“Up at about 9.30 to go down to sign on with B[ruce]. The labour [exchange] seemed fuller than usual – they’ve cutdown on staff – the buggers. After a pint... I read and corrected more of ‘Withnail and I’, his book and when he came back we opened the bottle of Pouilly-Fuissé that L had put out in the windowbox to chill…” 27 March 1974
“…Up first – as usual and out for a copy of the Sun and a bottle of red – Bruce’s bunce had not come... He ‘phoned them but to no avail so he went out to purchase a bottle of Pernod while I had a bath. When I finished the bath I lashed into the pernicious liquor with him & also into reading Othello. Cassio is a difficult part – another goody goody – at least he displays one flaw getting pissed –shouldn’t have much difficulty there. Got a decent buzz of the Pernod and was slumped in front of the telly…” 25 March 1974
“Up bedtime and over to Spread Eagle for wine then another. Then changed into suits + B + I went for a large Pernod as a double bunce arrived for him… down to the Little Theatre to see Chick she said if B + I were to do the play she’d be worried about us being stoned - Christ I said - How dare you - and persuaded her that we had discipline at our fingertips… Back home by tube and so to kip with copy of men only. God what a fate. Must work work work.” 29 March 1974